"THE NAPKIN" or "This is going to Hurt"

"welcome to the O2 messaging service, the person (your boyfriend) you are trying to speak to cannot take your call, pls leave your message after the tone."

"um hi... its amy. listen, i wanted to say this to you directly but i couldnt manage to catch you, and now you are apparently on a plane to L.A. Thanks for getting your secretary to tell me that.

Hon... we are going to be okay. But I've been giving this alot of thought. This is a well thought out decision, its not a rash tantrum or a cry for attention.This is not a tactic.

At the end of the day, what you need and what and i need from a romantic relationship, just dont co-incide. Its not about who is right, or who is wrong, it is the simpe fact that we are not a match. its not a crime, its no-one's fault. It's just sad becuase we do love each other... and i do hon. i love you so much i dont even understand it.

But, i had to say this before we got into smaller, irellavant details or about any particular hurt or incident. i wanted to say this before things became too sour for us to EVER have any kind of relationship, because that is not what i want. I want us to be in each other's lives, i just don't think it can be romantically - or not romantically right now.

I cannot love an empty space, I cannot love you if you wont let me, i cannot be your girlfriend if you cannot let me in.

I love you, I always will, this breaks my heart and causes un-imaginable pain. but i wish you every happiness, becuase you deserve it.

I guess that's it"

and with that... i picked up the shattered pieces of my heart.... and went looking for the sticky tape.