A Moment of Reflection

Having moved all of these blogs over to the one spot, I have taken the time do do something I rarely do. I’ve been reading back over them all. It’s amazing to see the journey of the past two years in such a personal way. These blogs are almost like a diary and the arc of this journey is interesting to look back on in such detailed hindsight.

Life here happens so quickly, this city moves at such break neck speed – it’s a rare thing to be able to listen to your voice within it’s clanging.

These two years backing London have felt like an eternity. I claimed recently that although I’d only been back two… I must have aged ten. But when I think about it… it could have been yesterday I got off that plane.

Time is such an abstract thing.

Reading these entries, I can see the girl who came back from America change and grow. It’s almost laughable how little I knew, how full of bravado and fury. I hear the tone of her voice changing and I can see her path change direction. Perhaps its because only I know what was really going on behind all of these tales… or what it all felt like – I can truly see what she was going through – what humour was real, what jokes were a defence - why cynicism was a shield – what moments really hurt.

It’s just interesting how such a relatively small space of time can bring a journey that has felt so large and long, with great changes, challenges and achievements… And I can only assume it will pale in comparison with what is surely yet to come.

I read a great quote today - "Most of us do not accept, or even believe in, the continual flux of life. However strange this may seem, once we truly accept this at a physical level, we will not need to search for certainty... As you tackle the tribulations of life, insights help you from taking yourself, your challenges, and life itself too seriously, because you will know that not matter what situation you are in, good or bad, it will change. This insight into the changing nature of the world will give you equanimity and joy."